First Friday of the year

Yesterday was such an interesting day.

At work, it is a very busy day, reconciling reports with Farm Manager, thinking of how to tell them in the gentle way that their data are wrong. And i learn one way to tell the Manager direct instead of telling the person that i find comfortable talking to. Which i did yesterday, it ended up taking me double the time to fix up the report. That is mistake no 1. Next, shouldn't assume that information given by someone is always correct, at times it is good to do a quick check. I passed a total of close to 600 journals entries and in the end realised that some of them are wrong and some of them are right. It takes me about 2 hours going thru them and finding out where is the error. That is mistake no 2. But thank God, there is a lot of reporting that i didn't have access to by the system, thus i'm able to go back home about 5plus 6. But that day of working 9 to 10 hours really takes away alot of my brain cells.

After work, i came back home, wanted to have a nap, and it is about 6pm. thinking i can take a quick nap, miss the prayer but still able to make it for lifegroup. but i think in my head, i shouldn't take a nap but go for prayer. So i did, i reach lifegroup just before 6:30 prayer. i rested for a while then go in to prayer, but after a while, i even felt more tired then ever. and i decided to rest outside. so instead of having a good 30min nap at home, i went earlier, but ended up not really in prayer and didn't take a nap. That is mistake no 3. Never be double-minded, will get me no where.

Lifegroup, before lifegoup started, a leader email us to say that he will be very late for lifegroup as he needs to do some work in the office. that is like.. what??? he is the doing chairing and sharing a few point after watching a dvd that day. And in the lifegroup, there is no one else that had put in that roles ever since the lifegroup formed. The other 2 leaders are not in brisbane. So you can imgaine how interesting the lifegroup will be. Thinking that its okay, he might be late for dinner but he should be there for the actual chairing (communion message and sharing). He can't be that late. So dinner time came, There is a dead fly found in the main dish. Then the person who the chairperson has authorise to chair the lifegroup on his behalf took out a big mug of maybe 1 litres of beer that was left from new year eve. Then that leader called and said that he can't come for lifegroup at all!!!! So it is getting more interesting. No 1, there is no one to do the communion message. No 2, no one else knows about the discussion to share after the dvd. Maybe if the other 2 leaders are around, it won't be that bad, but yesterday lifegroup is just like a 1 man show, either there is something, or there is nothing. During the dvd time, i felt asleep. Sound asleep. So after the dvd, there is just this drop dead, no one know about the things to share, or what is this dvd or lifegroup all about, or what is the take home point. it is just a normal dinner and watching dvd. Someone told me later on the way home, that i snored. It is so funny.

At the end of the day, i realised one thing. that i'm a great sinner, more than anyone in the lifegroup.

2010 New Year Resolution 1 - Go to Beach

This 1st Month of 2010 will be the time where i will make my New Year Resolution.
One of them i had decided that is to go to the beach every 3 month. Below is the photo that i took today from the top of the beach.

I think i really need that to go thru 2010. Someone once told me that when i'm tired, stressed or troubled, there is the time that i will be in a "weak" state. the words/actions that i did during that time, very often if not everytime i regreted it. This year especially, i know it will be a time where i will be alone. Which is good in a certain way, that i will have lesser regrets in my life.