Giving God full control

Thinking of blog this down first before i go on and do my things.

Someone shared something recently to me and these words actually struck me quite a bit. i need to refocus my perspective. To get the right focus and all the rest of the things around it will seems strangely dim. For the past few months, life had been challenging. Maybe because quite a few people were struggling at that time in one area or another, it actually made what i'm going thru as not even worth to be mention at all. But sometimes, when one thing is not mention at all, it doesn't mean that i had totally deal with it already. At times, when i think i had, but later only to realise that i hadn't.

And i realised one area, i didn't fully surrender it to God but still hold tightly to it. It is so tightly that the more i held tightly, the more i will feel the pain or hurt. And ended up, everything is in a mess.

No matter what, God, i still want to choose to give it to you completely 100% and do it Your ways. i know i had fail and stumble a number of times, and my direct leader can testify to that, God, help me to do things Your ways with the limited things that i know. Even when i don't understand or not able to figure it out how it is possible, but nevertheless, i still want to obey You.

To Live is Christ

These few days, this song has always been in my heart. This song speaks so much so much to me. Despites the challenges, struggles, etc, in life that i will still be able to say that for me to live is Christ. I pray that those who read this blog will also be strengthen in God.


To Live Is Christ

Verse 1:
I make a vow my life will always honor Christ
Whether I live or die
I belong to Him He bore my sin
I owe this life to my Saving King

PreChorus:
Hallelujah
I am not my own, You are in control
Hallelujah

Chorus:
for me to live is christ, and to die is gain
No matter what price I pay
I choose to give this life away

Bridge:
Only by the cross I am saved
Only by the cross I am saved

Beautiful Saviour

Jesus, Beautiful Saviour,
God of all Majesty,
Risen king,
Lamb of God,
Holy and righteous,
Blessed redeemer,
Bright morning star

All the heavens shout your praise,
All creation bow to worship You

How wonderful, how beautiful,
Name above every name, exalted high
How wonderful, how beautiful,
Jesus your name, name above every name, Jesus

I will sing forever, Jesus I love you, Jesus I love you

Updates

Over the past few weeks, i find it a joy to actually hear the audio bible and read the bible online while having my meals. It is such a enjoyable times. :) That's my favourite leisure time. I'm someone who doesn't really like to read, it will take me about 6 months to complete a book that i have interested in, and a few years for books that i'm okay with. And i realised that i still have other people's book in my room which i hadn't been reading for quite some time.

And after my meals, i will go online to the seek.com or careerone or jobsearch to look for jobs. I have interesting 2 job interviews so far and 1 more job interview tomorrow. So far the 2 job interviews that i had was very interesting. The first job interview i had was not really a job interview, it is like the company is out there trying to recruit everyone who apply for that job. I didn't really wanted that 1st job interview. Then comes the 2nd job interview, it is very interesting. I feel like i was sitting for an exam during that interview. I was asked to answer a few questions on IT hardware like, what does USB stands for? etc. And after that, i was given a few general questions to answer. I think those general questions are very interesting. It will be a bit too long if i will to share it in this blog. But do ask me, if you want to know what are the questions that they asked.

And i realised that my hair is getting a bit too long and messy, so i decided that i will to go and cut me hair. And now, i had came back home with a new haircut. I find that it makes me look younger. :)

I also chat with my close friend back in singapore. Wow, it is like a season where my peers are either attached and married and have kids. I feel happy for my friend who is attached now. And it seems like now they are like waiting for my turn. *Cold Sweat* Hahahaaa, must wait longer. But i really do miss the times when i'm with my friends back in singapore, the crazy but yet fun and unforgetable times. I think i really do miss my close friends in singapore, cause i even have a dream this morning. Thank God for the msn, that no matter how far i am, i'm still able to keep in contact.

Stewardship

Since the earlier entry about Basketball Experience, something is like "knocking" at my heart. That is in the area of how i have take care my body. Not that i do anything harmful to my body or anything, just that to be honest, over these few years, i hadn't been a good steward of the "temple of God". I had allowed my "reasoning" or excuses for not exercising and really look after my body. And the "reasoning" that i normally used is, "i'm just not an active person or i don't really like sport."

But thru out these few weeks, i really ponder and think about the area of having a healthy lifestyle. It doesn't just restrict to exercise but in every area of my life, even my eatting habits. How i choose to eat certain food and reject the rest, but i must clarify one thing, there are certain type of things that i really don eat, as in i can't stand eatting it. But for the rest which i'm okay with it, and yet choose not to eat those, i must change in that.

So, now, coming back to exercise, i have come up with a few plans on maintaining a healthy lifestyle. I choose the word "maintaining" cause i think that it is easy to start off and doing it, but it might be challenging to finish it well. That it is not based on a temporary "feeling" or "high" but it is base on "finish the race well". It is not a rule or a law that i had set up, but just plans that i have decided to do from today onwards.

I learn these from a book "Stewardship" which someone had given it to me in 2005 and until now is 2007, then only i have starting to build my conviction in a few aspect of stewardship as mention in that book. I'm very grateful to that person, who had given me that book.